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There is an English idiom which until now, I had never made sense of. "Stuck between a rock and a hard place.." I honestly have tried to make sense of it in the past and all that comes to mind is a funny image of a huge bolder rolling after a fleeing Umpa Lumpa. Today, I experienced first hand what it feels like to be stuck between a rock and hard place. Mine might not be one to be compared to World Peace, World Hunger, Global Heath Care, or a topic often sought after in more repressed civilizations, and then some, The girl child. No! Mine is simply an issue of choice.
Choices that I have not made and choices I have to make after I click the "post" button of this blog and choices I'm to make 2 weeks, 3 months, 5 years from now. But then again, there can not be action without choice. So perhaps I have made all my choices. Perhaps I will make make all my future choices as well.
I have been browsing through a couple of videos that were posted on my Facebook earlier today and with every second spent watching these great minds masterfully speak about issues that I have for a long time overlooked or maybe just pushed aside because I had to conform to the standards of a world so small that I have somehow managed to painfully fit, a world so afraid of the unknown, so afraid to experience what hasn't been.
And for about 2 minutes now, you've been reading a lot of psycho bubble, half of which you probably don't understand and you're probably wondering, "Whats his problem?" "If he's looking to write a bunch of random words, why do one of those cross word puzzle thingies.."
Questions! So many questions have come to mind. Many causing doubt of my moments purpose, if such a thing can be made sense of.
Why I'm in school? Do I wanna be here? Is this really the solution to all my problems? Will this degree guarantee my future success or I'm getting this to add to the collection of the 8 siblings that have come before me? Will I get that job? Do I want that job? Will I be able to do what is expected of me in that said job?
Questions! Questions! Questions!
Every question that pops into mind gives rise to yet some more. Right now, Edward Nashton's got nothing on me.!
I need answers.
Once again,
Signing off very distraughtly,
Yours truly
The million dollar question...! yet we still straggle for the life we are not sure we even want...! i usual call it life and take it as it comes, i dnt hv to like it but i gotta man up...or am i taking a coward's way out?!
ReplyDeletewell i have to commend the introspection here...though we cant keep questioning fate,it can only find us,same way we cant choose for things to surprise us,...as well put by Socrates
ReplyDelete"The balance needed for a happy life, to some extent, is illusory "
sometimes we have to force ourselves to let go of those questions that bother us and drift into an illusory world where our questions become non-existent....
Set sail without a destination...ignorance is bliss at times.
crazy style of living i know ..but well why stress,the worst hasn't happened yet
am izze via that umpa lumpa shit btw hehe
@big shat......i wouldn't exactly call it the cowards way but more the simpler/visible path. Most of us do what we do because someone we know has done it before us, most probably our parents or our older brothers/sisters.So we look at their results in life and set them as a bench mark. We say "oh...let me study exactly what my dad did and be a doctor/engineer just like him". And no matter how hard the journey is we are convinced that it is the only option because we know the end result. No one will risk taking a career path like music/art or any other none formal thing which he might probably be talented at because of the fear of not knowing where it will lead....coz no one before him/her has done it.
ReplyDelete@patient143...thats totally true but the draw backs of this kind of life is that you go through life miserable. but like you say its a visible path, at least you know whats in store for you at the end of the day!
ReplyDeleteyour right...psychobabble.
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